hello start,

i thought before i go crazy and taking things too hard, i better analyze the whole situation. seriously, it doesnt pay to be kind at all.  of course i'm gonna analyze it in my head and not here. i'll be walking with my head down mostly these days. so if i knock into you, sorry eh, i'm too embarrassed to face anyone. i feel that i've let the whole IT committee down, i should have learn how to say 'no'. i must say i have learnt it the hard way. its okay, lesson learnt. and how come those people that i know who share the same name as you always suck big time.

 i'm moving to a new blog soon. somewhere where my entries can be password protected, only to be seen by certain eyes and somewhere where my other dear readers need not have a livejournal account to read my private entries. and not forgetting, somewhere safe for my dear start to live (omg i must be going crazy already).

okay online shopping next. for those of you who are into online shopping, try emall.sg. its a local directory for online stores in Singapore.Try Tatarah.com.sg, not bad too.

i mean it this time. i'm gonna be on HIATUS for long time. maybe i'll shut down this blog. we'll see how. bye.

hello start,

and since when we woman dirty toilet seat/cover/whatever when we pee?

i'm puzzled when i see toilet covers dirtied or filled with them' yellow water. the other day, it was my turn to use the cubicle and i was so shocked to see the toilet seat covered with wet shoe prints! the person who had used the cubicle previously stayed on in the toilet, busy talking on the phone and looking into the mirror, adjusting her hair here and there. i gave out a loud 'TSK' and sent some sprinkles of water to her. and i got away with it. what is wrong with you woman?! no toilet-ethics awareness is it?

wah lau.

i feel so embarassed.

on a random note, i've been eyeing this book for quite some time now.

pash, i'm so in love with you.

hello start, 

afterall, life is about making choices right?
i hope i did make the correct one. 

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is it me or is it really that the sky looks so cartoon-ed today?
i swear it look too perfect. 
god's beauty :)

i saw a guy for the first time (in real life) who had the sweet face.
i've always seen it in pictures but i saw it today right in front of my eyes.
wah, damn sweet lor!

i swear (again) he's the first.

i know some of my peeps are going through shit. i went through this phase before and had named it the 'taik lembu' phase. dont ask me why, but green and i named it that way. 

i hope we preserve and pull this through, there's always a reason why things happen. 

i'm living every second of my life with faith and i cling on every bit of it as much as i can. i dont hope, but i have faith.

hello start,

wish me well yea.
i feel like as though i'm drowning slowly.
why is it nothing seem to work now.
i have to go through it without any painkillers.
truth be told, the actual wound hurt like fuck.
i used to bear it all without any medication,
but why is it and how is it that i resort to it?

beats me.

hari raya was a blast. i'll update with pictures but not anytime soon.

hello start,

i found out that there's a factory called "The Food Factory" near my workplace. That explains the vanilla scented air/udara that we people here get on daily afternoon basis. Had i not overslept and end up at teban again, i wouldn't have known.

well here i am in the morning at work, geared up in a malay costume with raya songs on loop in wmp.

make up (check)
perfume (check)
heels (check)
$$ (check check)
boria baju (check, really gorgeous i tell you!)
accessories (check)

okay only handbag is not in the list. I have so much to blog about but i cant seem to put it into words. So i think i'll end it here. But before that, to all my family and friends,kalau ade tersilap atau terkasar bahasa, maafkan ye. Selamat menyambut Hari Raya.

muacks.

hello start,

i shall take some time off from doing work and blog. Raya's like in two days time and i still very much have lots to buy and do. oh well, what's new noi. but last minutes always work. i'm on a half day leave tomorrow and i shall use the time to grab whatever i need to grab. guys not included. heh. ok lame.

moving on, i've finally settle on voting for by definition. not because i have this thing for pretty boys and the lead singer is one and not because i dont like catsinecradle, but i feel that credits should go more to by definition. i would PAY money to watch them simply because of their showmanship, the different number they can play cos the band has got each members playing different instrument . catsinecradle are good too, i would pay to see them too but like what the judges say - the lead singer would have done better if he had audition for solo. so yeah, there goes the group effort. ok so you guys know who i'm voting for now. so catsinecradle fans/supporters/worshippers or whatever you call them, feel free to do whatever you should be doing to by definition fans like me.

okay i'm out, i promise an entry before raya tomorrow.

ok bye start.

i'm sorry for all the papers that i unconciously use today. For tearing, ripping and shredding it apart. Sorry trees, if I have in any ways become a hinder to you expanding your species.

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OMG. i dont know who to vote for..catsinecradle or by defination?!!
both bagos lah!!!
vote tau people, dont forget!

hello start,

some words to describe my day.

"ouch.
erm okay.
what?!
HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHA.
he accepted!!!
HAHAHHAHA"

okay dah.

hello start,

okay so i change my mind about being on hiatus.

start, i feel like as if my brain is being squeeze and all the juice from my brain has somehow evaporate into the air. ok gross.

i've run out of ideas. i can generate anymore new designs and all that i've done so far look like freakin crap. eeeerrrgh. met up with nad yesterday and we had a little retail therapying done. but no damage done. the real damage will be done today (i think) cos i'm heading to the body shop warehouse sale!!!! maut! confirm spend like crazy. anyways, talking about crazy and everything i realize that i bought 3 pair of shoes just last month. i must be sick to go and buy that much shoes!

hello start,

"sesungguhnya aku sedang berpuasa,
 sesungguhnya aku sedang berpuasa,"

i'm so freaking pissed. i have to repeat the above lines for the millionth time cos things are not going very well the right way. i have tons of work now and i've decided to go on HIATUS.

will back after raya. till then, take care start, i'll miss talking to you. chao.

hello start,

i really have to blog about this. i dont what for but i have to get it off my chest.

i feel that my akhlak is getting low and low as the days pass. i'm on a break from fasting cos i cant fast you see. the school, being its usual self always give away free food the staff. so today was no exception, they gave free briyani lah sial. how freakin'  tempting is that. start you know that although we cant fast, we must not eat in front of those who are fasting. its a form of respect towards the person and also the holy month itself.

and me, being such a toot, cant tahan my hunger anymore. i thought the coast was clear, all the other muslim teachers went back and i ate the briyani. it taste so good i tell you. out of nowhere, some of the muslim teachers came back and saw what they weren't suppose to see which me eating the briyani.

start, i know that i've been trained to fast from young and like what mum says "no matter how bad the person is, but if he's been trained to fast from young, he will fast and respect the month". but look at me now. the malays call it "akhlak". what's happening to my akhlak?

shit me. fark. noi you're a teacher!! suppose to be setting good example!!!

shit shit.

hello start,

after a few nephews, i finally got a niece!!!! its a baby girl everybody! a baby girl!! i almost cried when i saw the baby in the number 32 was wrapped in a pink kain! everyone's at home is like freakin freakin excited. and i can already see my parents pampering the baby girl!! my mum kept carrying her the whole time and she's the most beautiful girl that i've come across so far. her eyes were so beautiful and when i kiss her goodbye, she smell so good.

oh ya, since it was such a big suprise and my brother and sis in law didnt know the gender of the baby till she was given birth to, the niece still do not have a name yet.

she's the most beautiful being ever.